"You will be exactly as happy as you decide to be"
Oh would you look, Selfie Girl is back in the keyboard!
Ok, so it's been a little while since I've been on so I thought I would do a little catch-up post, just to give you a little update on where I am, how things have been and all that kind of thing. So, let's get into it.
Where am I?
I'm currently living in Sydney, staying with some family. I moved from Brisbane to Sydney in the middle of November. During my last week or two, I was feeling really bittersweet about leaving Brisbane. As it was the first city I arrived to when I came to Australia, it will always hold a special place in my heart for that reason and it's filled with some many incredible memories with some amazing people I met there. So, is Sydney growing on me? I guess so! I sadly haven't had much luck on the job front (will talk more in a bit) so I'm currently moving from the couch and Netflix to the beach to try and keep the funds low! I've visited a few suburbs and I can see why everyone loves Sydney. It's filled with so much beautiful and easy going people, the culture is so relaxed and calm in comparison to Ireland. My plan is to stay here until around February (if I get a job) and who knows what will happen then?
Am I missing home?
I've been doing pretty well with my homesickness overall because I'm used to being away from home as I was in boarding school and I lived in Dublin for college and work (an hour and a half drive from my home. But, yesterday I wrote my Christmas cards to my family. To be honest, I've never been a big Christmas person, but with this year being my first Christmas from home, I started feeling homesick when I was writing the cards. I kept thinking and wondering what i could possibly write down to express how I feel and how much I miss them all. No words on a card would be enough. It's weird seeing Christmas trees everywhere when it's over 25 degrees everyday, hearing songs about snow and winter wonderland, while wearing a bikini? Yes, it's all a bit strange. It just doesn't feel like Christmas here so I don't feel more homesick as what I should be. Maybe closer to Christmas Day I will, but right now, I'm doing ok. I miss my family and friends every single second of the day and it crosses my mind the odd time that maybe my time is up and I should go home but since being here, I don't miss Ireland itself, just the beautiful souls living there.
Am I working?
Since arriving to Sydney, it's been extremely difficult to find work. I've spent nearly everyday applying for jobs, adjusting my CV, contacting recruitment agencies, event companies etc. Sadly, there has been no luck. One of the main reasons for that is the time of year naturally. A lot of companies aren't hiring because Sydney essentially closes down for Christmas, all offices close during the Christmas holidays for over a week. I'm just remaining positive and hoping something comes up. I've been applying for promotional work and causal work this week so hopefully the odd job will just make a difference. I'm one of those people who likes to be working all the time and having a routine. Sadly I'm just running out of money, being totally honest, and it's crap but this has to happen to every backpacker but it will always get better. So if you're ever in doubt or struggling, just keep powering through.
5 Months gone
It's actually crazy to think that over 5 months ago, I left Ireland with just a backpack and a case. I know to my friends and family it may seem like I've been gone for years. But for me, I felt like I left last week. The time has gone incredibly fast and I just don't want it to end. It's had it up's and downs, not everyday is perfect but I'm making the most of it as best as I can. I've met so many incredible friends here, visited so many cool places and experiences things that never in my wildest dream did I think I would do. I always wanted to travel, explore and see the world, little did I think I'd be here typing a blog post in Australia.
When I arrived, my first week was quite over-whelming. I was struggling with jet-lag, getting used to sleeping in an 8 bed dorm and feeling alone. I constantly thought that coming here was a big mistake, started just watching lots of shows instead of exploring. I ate constant bad food and was feeling awful all the time. I honestly didn't know what to do. I ended up going to Peter Pan's (travelling agent) and booked a 4 week jam-packed East Coast Trip. It was a lot of money but honestly, it was worth every cent. I got to do so many cool things, meet lots of people and created memories. Since then, I've been on a high. Since being here, my mental health as improved. I don't think pessimistically, I'm eating healthier, I'm not putting myself down and I feel more confident than I've ever been. When something doesn't go my way, I just accept it and move on. My whole way of thinking is the opposite of what it was back in Ireland. I'm not perfect or I'm not always happy, I'll always have mental health issues of some sort but being here has helped me be a better version of me.
Ok, I'll leave it there because it was started to get a bit soppy!
Until next time, Stay tuned for more chaos,